... So I've been mulling over some words that have become very unpleasant to my ears in relation to the "art profession" I've chosen; Professional, Graphic Designer, Corporate, Collateral, Advertising, Designer, Production, Organize. Wait, I guess I should say that these words have always resonated unpleasantly against my eardrums, I've always fucking hated them. I know, I know, posting something like this online is a huge
faupaux, potential employers could read this and make a judgement call based off of it... Good! If they can't understand my disdain for the cold merciless soul sucking machine that is the advertising industry, then I don't want to work for them. The only art in it is knowing how to lie, connive and manipulate people... be a swindler. These feelings I hold toward this industry are the main reasons I struggle to move forward in it... I don't believe in it. I know it's there and in some respects it works very well... at filling the suit pockets of certain individuals and bankrupting others. FUCK! or FUCKED? How much longer can I continue pursuing something that holds no value for me? Hopefully not long, another year; maybe. I'm going to find something else, something more rewarding than a paycheck or "benefits", bleh. Maybe I'm a purist, experiencing my artwork as I create it, feeling paint on my hands, fingers stained by charcoal, the smell of newspaper and tape, hearing the crunch and shuffle of paper, I can almost taste the creativity in the air... an immersion of the senses... something's out there for me.
